Unbuttoning
It’s just unbuttoning a coat,
isn’t it?
You think, it should be easy,
this slow peeling of layers,
one clasp,
then the next,
until you are bare,
until nothing but skin remains between us.
But I fumble,
fingers awkward with fear,
each button a memory
of being unloved,
of turning away
when the truth was asked of me.
You are patient,
eyes soft as wool,
but still, I hesitate-
not from lack of want
but from the weight of the past
that clings like wet fabric.
And when I finally shed it,
when all is open,
when all is seen,
there is no applause,
no grand reveal,
just a quiet warmth
where the cold used to be.
It seems easy,
this letting in,
this letting go,
but it’s always a little harder
than we think.